I’m back at work at the tail end of a big weekend – one that included multiple fund raising BBQs, cutting up kilos of onions for said BBQs and some heavy work around the farm. As a result, I’m experiencing tiredness and an associated lack of enthusiasm for general work. It’s definitely impacting my creativity – which is why I’m writing about it instead of something more interesting. I wrote yesterday about the delightfulness of achievement, however, I have also fialed to properly factor in the cost of that achievement. It turns out the finite amount of energy that we all have can be spent all too quickly and that it’s important to have down time.
I’m very bad at this. Very bad. In fact, I get antsy sitting around doing nothing. Once upon a time I could lay in a sunny spot at home and read for hours – shifting to match the movement of the sun, but now I find myself pushing to do things, looking around for things to do and hyper aware of what needs to be done – even while my brain and body are subtly nudging me to rest. It’s been worse – years ago I’d end up with a migraine that would put me flat on my back. Nowadays I just feel stuffed, flat and in no mood for the slowness of others. It’s at this point I have a distinct urge to go slow.
At work there is a focus on making sure our staff have a good break every now and then – a week or two weeks away from it all and able to recharge. I have not had that this year with the job change and loss of annual leave. A week over Christmas is usually nice but with family visiting it can become very hectic, so it’s not the most relaxing time. Usually a week or two in the desert does the trick but I missed it this year and I’m still paying for that. Hopefully two weeks in out in the wilderness next year will ease that burden!
So the point of this post is a reminder to me (and to you) to make time to stop and smell the roses (to use the tired cliche). There’s only so far one can run before the tank is empty and everything grinds to a halt. I’ve found this state to impact my health, mental well being and relationships with others. More acutely, my attention is easily distracted and I struggle with deep work – and this annoys me even more! So chill out and then get back to it.
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